Soundscapes

Fair Girl

2008-07-21T21:08:00.002+08:00

i wanted to say out everything to you but i guess stupidity reign over me .
and for the past 6 months i stood in silence watching you here and there hoping that
we will get close . and we did . and things was normal . hints was on play .
i imagined a lot of things happening if it works out . good ones and bad ones .
but we pulled through . we got through them like fire and water .
my weakness is getting worse . i stand firm on the solid ground as you leave vapour trails
in the deep blue sky . i told u everything . and found out someone else was in mind .
questions came in my mind like ants on sugar . i didn't want to let you go as i was really close .
i was really really close .
just like i said .
it's you . it has always been you . you never fail to amaze me every single time .
just recently i shook your hand . it was the first time . i did not want to let go . i did not want to go home .
i wanted to wait .
3 hours . thats not so long .
yes i am very shy . i admit . i'm useless when friends are around .
give me time . i can do this .
you are the one i want standing next to me when all my dreams come true . its you .

im still behind with the trails in the sky . look back and i'm there . =)
i am not going anywhere . i will always be here . =)

Turn around and look back . .

2008-06-14T22:08:00.002+08:00

i realise that i'm different now . particularly this year . 2008 . i don't go out that much .
but no worries . . i will be going out really soon . but i don't know when and who to go out with . .
my life is really simple now . you could say my life is boring . i don't really communicate much with my secondary school mates . ok fine . honest fact = i don't contact them at all . only 3% of them i'm still in touch with . i don't really have much to type to be honest . but if i can say something to everyone . it will go something like this ' Secondary School Life is the roller coaster ride of your life '

switch on your iPod . put your earphones on . walk away . . ( this is what Mr Magoo would say to me if he could )

2008-06-14T02:44:00.001+08:00

Old Blog + New Changes = New Blog .
Enjoy

i am but not frequent .

2008-04-01T17:55:00.002+08:00

this is one beautiful song . trust me . watch it . however this is not the official video of the song . well . . just listen to the music . forget about the video . .

Hoppipolla ( Hopping Into Puddles )

2008-02-05T18:29:00.000+08:00

a great friend of mine just had a very beautiful birthday . i told her no matter how old you will grow . as long as you have a young heart . you will still look young to me . .
and this video kinda really portray what i'm trying to say . .
very beautiful song . a video you will never forget . .

The Scientist

2008-01-20T21:33:00.000+08:00

Come up to meet you, tell you Im sorry
You dont know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy
Oh its such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh its such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
Im going back to the start

Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh ohh

Prom

2007-11-25T03:44:00.000+08:00

met the friends . all dressed up . ready to go . get into the van . reached and made an entrance . well . we had fun for table games . then the part where everyone decides who are the Prom King and Queen . King was Glenn . Queen was i dont know who cos i was outside at the bar playing the piano . my friends are back and in we go to the room and realise it was time to dance . Sufian quickly went in and without hesitation he dance without us . me and rahim decide to go in . well on the stage or so called 'podium' . haha . we dance . then so sick and tired with Jeremy Woo and his lame music . Rahim's iPod was plugged in and tune to Paul Van Dyk's Crush . . me yan rahim shafii zulhafiz in the middle of the dance floor . shuffling to the music . well the rest just watch . cos partly form my point of view is they dont really know how to dance to the song . Prom was kinda lame especially the games . once the Dance Floor was opened . IT WAS THE BOMB ! will never ever forget that night . i wanna go dance again .

Trespassers William's Vapour Trail

2007-11-17T06:32:00.000+08:00

First you look so strong,
Then you fade away.
The sun will blind my eyes;
I love you anyway.
Thirsty for your smile;
I watch you for a while.
You are a vapour trail
In a deep blue sky.

Tremble with a sigh;
Glitter in your eye.
You seem to come and go;
I never seem to know.
And all my time
is yours as much as mine.
We never have enough
Time to show our love.

Persist

2007-11-10T20:31:00.000+08:00

as the sands of time flow through the hour glass . during the mid day i shall stand where the sun is highest in the beautiful sky . looking up to the beauty of it . hoping that you are alright . hoping that you are okay . on this warm earth i shall wait . wait for that particular day to come where i will be right in front of you looking at your sky blue eyes . persist i must . for those eyes cannot be missed . i will leave you for now . as long as the sky stays beautiful . i will never stop waiting . after 365 days . you will know that i've persisted . .

The Story

2007-11-07T02:36:00.000+08:00

3 different guys in 3 different situation . but they have one thing in common . they have the same questions in their mind .

Have you ever felt like your alone ? What if you truly were ?
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after spending half the day walking in the rain with his shoelaces untied . he finally reaches home . he was tired but nothing could stop his mind from asking the same questions over and over again . this was totally unexpected . he didn't know that this would happen to him . he went into the toilet and with his wet clothes on, he sit on he toilet floor . hopeless . lifeless . he didn't know what to do . what should be his next move ? in 3 months time . he is going to leave this world . surprisingly, his phone rang . it was still working after being in the wet pocket for hours . it was her .

He : Hello . .
She : I'm sorry . i didn't expect things would go this way .
He : It's ok . me too .
She : so what are you goi . .
He : sorry i don't feel like talking now . .

he hang up the phone . there was no point . no matter what she does . in 3 months time . he will still be gone . he sat there . deep in his thoughts .

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the plane landed . they have reach the middle east . the platoon quickly report to the army base . briefings was given . the location of the troops that needed support . he knew that this was it . it will be the open war . his mind suddenly thought of his wife . how sweet her smile was . now all he can do is to survive the war . the briefing was over . they were given exactly 20 minutes to prepare for the support . 20 minutes was over . every gun is loaded . double checked . grenades on their belts . everything was set . they got up the lorry and they left the army base to get to the location . they reach the location . he got off the lorry and quickly take cover . there he was . in the middle of the war . he can hear gunshots . soldiers requesting for back up . soldiers screaming in pain . he knows he have to do this . it was time . .

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he was in space . checking everything to make sure that there are no errors . now all he have to do is drive the shuttle to the moon . it was a straight route . everything was floating around . it was amazing to be floating around in the shuttle . he look outside the clear glass . he saw earth . it was beautiful . it feels as if he was looking down through God's eyes . he was amaze on how nice it is to float around when suddenly he thought of his mum . he really miss her . how he wish she could have been here with him . when suddenly the whole shuttle started shaking vigorously . everything was in a mess . after a few moments it was back to normal . he check to see if everything was ok . everything seems fine . but deep inside him he knows something is wrong . .

to be continued . .

The Story

2007-11-05T23:02:00.001+08:00

he was in the plane thinking about what he is going to do in order to survive the war . he was there in the plane along with his fellow comrades . it was obvious all of them were trying very hard to hide their fear . some were holding back their tears . some were praying . some were holding onto their good luck charms . it was obvious all of them were afraid of this war . everyone saw the plane soaring through the night sky . the next morning in a small town a hundred miles away from the army camp . .

rumors were already spreading around about another space project . a shuttle to be send to the moon . he was walking in small town looking for a barber shop to get a haircut . he is not familliar with this town . currently he is living in a small apartment in this town . he was listening to all these rumors being spread around like butter on a piece of bread . what they do not know is that he is actually the man who is going to be send to the moon to do some researching . finally he found the barber shop . surprisingly it was empty . the barber was there sitting down watching the television with no colors . he went in . the barber stood up and welcome him with a warm smile . once the haircut was done . he paid and left .

He left the barber shop at 9.08am . .

usually when he's done at the small town . he will take the bus 46 and alight a few blocks away from his house . today he decided to walk home . he walked at the side of the road . the road was empty . not even a single vehicle was seen passing by through this road . he walk looking up to the sky . thinking what does it feel like to be up there looking down on earth . soon he find himself two blocks away from his small apartment . he heard a familiar sound . it was a ringing sound . it was the phone at his apartment . he ran over to the apartment an quickly went in to pick up the call .

it is the army general from Kennedy Space Center . he called to inform that in 2 days time . they will be launching him to space . he was shock to hear the news . he didn't know it would so fast . he only have 2 days and its not enough to go back to his hometown and spend some time with his family . all he can dow as jsut give them a phone call . without hesitation he call his mum .

He : Hello ? Mum are you there ?
Mum : Yes . It's been so long since i hear your voice .
He : Mum i'm leaving tomorrow .
Mum : But i thought the research will be in 3 or 4 months ?
He : I thought so too . but i jsut received a call and i was told i will be leaving in 2 days .
Mum : Please becareful my son . its a totally different world out there .
He : I know mum . i know . and i wanna apologise for everything i have done to you .
Mum : It's okay . all i want you to do is becareful out there . i want you to be back .
He : I will mum . i will . i promise . now i have to go ok mum ?
Mum : So soon ?
He : Yes . i need to pack all my stuff and get ready . for they will come to pick me up anytime soon .
Mum : Why so soon ?
He : Procedures mum . standard procedures . i have to go now ok ?
Mum : ok son . be careful . i love you .
He : I love you too .

the conversation ended . he regretted for not spending more time with his mum . for all the time he was away doing research and going for meetings that he don't have the time for his mum . still his mum was there for him all the time . he started packing some stuff . and finally finish off with his clothes . suddenly he heard vehicles coming in from the road . he look outside the window and saw he army general who called him just now . they came to pick him up . they helped him with his stuff . all the boxes were loaded in the car . he stood outside and look up to the sky again and this time, in his heart . he said . i will be up there and people will look at me now . he entered the car and off they went to the space center .

He left his small apartment at 1.05pm . .

once they reach the space center . he was told to be in the board room where the government will start asking questions about this space project . they shoot alot of questions which was merely impossible to answer but somehow he manages to answer every single one of them . the question session was done . he was located to his room . he spends most of his time there . reading a book . watching the news . thinking of his mum .

2 days has passed and it was time for the final briefing . the last briefing was given right outside the main door of the shuttle . the briefings were done and he was left alone to enter the shuttle . the man door was heavy and solid . he went inside and shut the door tight . he is familiar with everything inside . he knows how to operate this huge machine . a voice was heard through the intercom . he was told to sit down and prepare for the launch . in 10 minutes time . the shuttle will be launch to the sky and above to space . he spend the 10 minutes thinking of everything that he has done . his first kiss . the picnic trip he had with his siblings . he felt guilty for not calling them to inform that he is leaving . 10 minutes quickly passed and this time a countdown was heard though the intercom .

Intercom : 10 . . 9 . . 8 . . 7 . . 6 . . 5 . . 4 . . 3 . . 2

this was it . he know there is no turning back now .

Intercom : 1 . .

he felt a surge of adrenaline within him . the shuttle was moving and it was moving fast . he can feel that the shuttle was already flying high . leaving the country .

Intercom : We have lift off . .

the shuttle launched at 4.35pm . .

the shuttle was way too fast but he knows how to control . all the townsfolk was looking at the sky . looking at the shuttle soaring through the sky . flying up high . all he sees is the bright blue sky. suddenly it was dark and all he can see is bright white dots in the dark world . he knows he have reach space . he still has alot more to go to reach the moon . he knows he can do it . the only thing is he has to hope that nothing wrong will happen with the shuttle . the only problem now is . if anything goes wrong . there is noone there to help him except the intercom . he is all alone . .

he reached space at 4.52pm . .

to be continued . .

The Story

2007-11-03T02:42:00.000+08:00

at the same time . while he was walking in the rain . with his shoelace untied . half a world away . in another country . .

despite of all the noise in the army camp . silence was all he heard . he was looking up to the sky and thinking whether he should tell his wife that he is leaving for the war in the middle east . this time he don't even know if he's coming back . he got into the car and leave the army camp .

He left the camp at 3.04pm . .

after a 30 minute drive . he finally reach home . in the car he sat . still thinking whether he should tell her during dinner . he left the car still thinking . he open the front door and took a step into the house . he felt comfortable with where he is right now . the warm and cozy atmosphere seems to lift up his mood . but deep inside him he know that the news his going to break to his wife is going to ruin everything . he took off his boots and socks and leave them by the side of the shoerack and walk over to the kicthen . he saw her standing there . busy with the cooking . the radio was on but it wasn't loud enough to be heard especially with the cooking going on in the same place .

He : Why do you still on the radio when you know you're not gonna
be able to hear them especially with the cooking going on in the same place .

surprise to see him standing there in the kitchen . she ran to him and gave him a hug and kiss him . she looked at him with her arms on his shoulders and smile .

She : When you're not around . the only thing that keeps my company in this house while i'm cooking is the radio . . now i can off it since you are here with me .

upon hearing she said that . he know he have to tell her . he just do not know when .

She : Why not you go up and take a shower and rest . it must have been a rough day at that camp . i will wake you up when it's time for dinner .
He : Okay love . .

he went upstairs and into the room . put his bagpack aside and took off his army uniform .
once he was done with the shower . he went to take a nap . soon he wake from what felt like 5 minutes nap . he looked at the clock and it was going to be dinner soon . he take another shower and was already on his way downstairs for dinner when he heard his phone rang . it was his commander . he was told to report to the camp by 10 and leaving the country by 11 . . once done with the phonecall . he get ready for dinner .

He : Spaghetti . . lovely . .
She : I know you love them .
He : Not as much as i love you . .
She : Thank you honey . .

They had dinner at 7.31pm

It was a beautiful dinner . his mind wasn't calm . it was time .

He : Honey i have to tell you something
She : Yes ?
He : I'm leaving
She : For how long ?
He : I don't know . I don't even know if i will be back
She : Why do you say that ?
He : My platoon will be send to the middle east . to the war . the troops over there need our help .
She : When will you be leaving ?
He : I need to report to the camp by 10 tonight

she got up and went to the kitchen . what was once a beautiful dinner has now turn to a sad one . there he was sitting at the dining table alone . she was in the kitchen crying endlessly by the kitchen sink . he left the dining room and went over to the kitchen . gave her a hug .

He : I'm sorry . But i have to leave you tonight .
She : Promise me you will come back .
He : I promise i will come back for you . Please wait for me .
She : I will . I love you .
He : I love you too . always and forever .

both of them were in the kitchen the whole night . the dinner was forgotten . they spend the evening holding each other in their arms by the fridge . soon it was time for him to leave . he went upstairs and put on the army uniform and went downstairs to wear his boots . after putting on his boots . he kissed her for one last time . they hugged . she cried . he carried his duffel bag . he got into the car knowing full well that might be the last time he see her . he cried in the car and drove off . she cried by the door knowing full well that her husband is leaving the country for war . still she holds on the her husband's promise .

He left her at 9.23pm . .

after parking his car at the army base . he went to report to his commander . soon they were having standard procedures and last minute briefings . soon it was 11 and it was time for them to leave . he step into the plane and look back and realise that this might be the last time he see's this country again . he holds onto that promise he made to his wife . it is 11.07 and the plane is ready for lift off . his heart was beating faster and faster . he realise . he is going to a war and he have to fight for his life in order to come back . he knows it's going to be hard out there . he knows he might not make it back . .

He left the country at 11.17pm . .

to be continued . .

The Story

2007-10-31T06:03:00.000+08:00

To Those Who Needs A Story To Read . .

the sky was getting dark and it was going to rain . it was 5.43pm . he is already late for his appointment at the hospital . quickly took a bath and dress up . he slip into his black converse . without tying his shoelace, he left the house .

He left the house at 6.12pm . .

he remembered telling her to meet up with him after the appointment . he was looking forward to meeting her more than the appointment but he know he still have to attend this stupid appointment . he entered the hospital and get to the doctor's room .

he entered the room and took a seat . the doctor told him that he has a heart condition . he has 3 months left . he was shocked to hear those words coming from the doctor's mouth . the room was silent . for a moment he thought the doctor was joking but after a few seconds he knew that the doctor was telling the truth . when the doctor was done he left the room to meet up with her .

He left the room at 6.57pm

he saw her from afar . he didn't know what to say to her . whether to pretend that everything is okay . or to tell her the truth . his phone rang . he took the phone out of his pocket and saw the she was calling him . he picked up

He : Hello . .
She : Hi ! Where are ya ?
He : I'm coming . in fact i can see you from where i am now ( waving at her )
She : ok stop waving and come here .
He : ok i'm coming . .

he put down the phone and made his way to her . still thinking about what he's going to say to her . he saw that smile on her face which never fails to make his day but this time it failed . . the sky was getting darker and darker . he hold her hand and decided to tell her the truth .

He: i'm going to die in 3 months time
She : -speechless-

it start to rain . and it was heavy . everyone started running to get underneath a shelter so as not to get their clothes wet from the rain . the both of them didn't . .

It started raining at 7.41pm

He : i don't know what to do .
She : -started crying-
He : say something please . .
She : -still crying-
He : i can't be with you anymore . i won't be with you in 3 months time . i'm sorry .
She : -still crying-

wet . drenched . he left her crying in the rain . he wasn't prepared for this . he didn't know things are going to be this way . it was totally unexpected . he look up to the sky and look down on the floor . he saw his shoelaces . still untied . he turned back to look at her once more . she was still looking at him and crying . he turn back and with his shoelaces untied he continued walking in the rain .

He left her at 8.04pm . .

to be continued . .

Finally

2007-10-30T22:45:00.000+08:00

finally i managed to compose a song . its called 'Dreamscape' . its only a sample for now . if you want it . please ask me for it .

1) Life
2) The Chase
3) Dreamscape

the three songs that i have composed . i still have a lot more to go . the melodies . the ambience to fit in the background . the chords . the rhythms . it will take a long time but i will do it .

No, my music is not punk rock
Yes, my music is sort of experimental and soundscape

let me say something about 'Dreamscape'

i name it Dreamscape because of the dreams that people have . dreams that are merely impossible .

Irreversible

2007-10-29T04:50:00.001+08:00

it was 6 years ago . since the twin towers of the World Trade Center has collapse and 3000 people died because of that . 3000 people . and then we followed along . and another 100 000 people died in the middle east . a hundred thousand people . war continued on till now . people still continue on dying in the streets in the middle east . planes keep dropping their bombs in cities . guns kept reloading cos it kept shooting . bombs keep exploding . war has taken over the holy cities . instead of having a nice dinner together . families have to keep running because of the war . this war needs to end . it doesn't prove anything . it doesn't prove how real we are . this is irreversible .

Angels And Airwaves . one of my favourite bands . it was formed by this guy name Tom Delonge . who was a former member of Blink 182 . in the band Blink 182 . there is 3 guys . one name Tom . one name Mark and another name Travis . they were good friends . in fact Tom and Mark are best friends . when suddenly after 13 years of making and playing music together . Tom suddenly decided to change his phone numbers and move away from where he use to live and didn't tell his band about his disappearance . he called the manager of the band and told him to tell the rest of the band that he want to call it off . and therefore . after the break up . you have 2 new bands , one is Angels And Airwaves and Plus 44 (also one of my favourite bands) . Plus 44 was formed by the other 2 remaining members of Blink 182 . all the Blink 182's fans were totally disappointed . and they keep bragging and asking ' when is Blink 182 going to come back ? '

you see these things are irreversible . the band broke up and its over . the war is still going on . people keep dying . it's irreversible . somehow i wish the war will end . and let people live in peace . but i know that is not going to happen . and i also wish that Blink 182 will come back and rock ! but no . that is not gonna happen either .

anyway what i'm trying to prove is that . sometimes things happen and thats it . nothing is going to change the fact that it has already happen . nothing will make it the way it was before . maybe for the band's case . an apology would do . but for the War . will an apology be enough to bring back those who were killed ?

things happen and nothing can change it .

The Innocent Lives

2007-10-27T03:05:00.000+08:00

the events that happen in Myanmmar now . its not beautiful . some say its like hell to be there . just by walking on the road . you can see bodies . some are barely alive . some dead . some don't even have bodies . the monks . they did a peaceful demonstration . what did they get ? all of them were shot dead . for God's sakes . these monks don't even eat meat . they don't even harm animals . and they get shot . it's like a war out there . without even mentioning about the war between Palestin and Israel . which has been going on for God knows how long . you walk in your neighbourhood . you see childrens playing with soft toys . you walk in either of this 2 countries you see childrens holding weapons . ready to kill . ready to fight . and they are just childrens . you see what war brings into these young lives . you see children in schools being taught on how to do problem sums but those kids there are taught on how to kill . War is not a good thing . everybody knows it and do nothing . Yes, you see it on the news where the Ministers go to their country to sign a Peace Agreement between Palestin and Israel . but nothing has happen . they still continue fighting . about the Myanmmar issue . let's just hope for the best .

the comeback

2007-10-24T20:17:00.001+08:00

the change of my blog skin shall revive the aura within me that will in fact gives me the motivation to blog more . i won't be blogging everyday . i love this new blog skin . she's off to study for her exams now . all the best to her . i will pray for you . to all who is reading now . do me a favor . one fine afternoon at around 2 pm - 3.45 pm . please leave your house . get out to an open field . breathe the air that surrounds you . and look up to the sky . a sensation none shall ever forget .

2007-10-23T01:10:00.000+08:00

it's been 3 nights now . i've been waiting . where are you ? if only i can give you the url for my blog and let you read what i really feel . but i can't . i keep looking at your house everyday . so that i feel close to you . i look up to the sky everytime . knowing that you'll look up too . i know i was wrong . now give me another chance please . things were great . now i'm losing . i feel helpless . oh i really need you now .

2007-10-19T18:13:00.000+08:00

i looked up to the mid day sky today . i prayed that everything goes well for you and hope everything goes well for you and him too . when i looked up to the sky . i got a feeling you were looking up too . i don't know whether what i felt was true but its just a feeling . i hope you are happy with your life . i wish you all the best . i'm lousy . i am . i'm not worth anything . i'm useless .

2007-10-19T03:48:00.000+08:00

saddest day of my life .

2007-10-16T23:08:00.000+08:00

i am trying to be with a girl half a world away from where i am living . where the beaches has beautiful sunsets . where voices of a violin can be heard in a happy tune in the middle of a busy town . where townsfolk sits and enjoy the breeze . a country that is rather unknown to alot of people . somehow both of us found each other . or should i say somehow we met . and we talked . you told me alot of things . i remember them till now . i still remember the day i smiled the whole day . i still remember it . it was the best day of my life . i wanna know everything about you . i wanna be there beside you . but i have to wait . cos now is not the time yet . i hope you'll wait too .

some say its impossible . some just give advices . i say its possible . there is still hope . i will meet you one day . i will meet your best friend . i will know everything about you . i will do the dishes for you . i will even let you hold the remote control . i wanna grow old with you .

2007-10-14T23:23:00.000+08:00

things are getting better . but i know that it won't be for long . soon enough i will be sad again . i had a great time talking to you last night . we talked like we use to . i miss you so much . ihope we talk again tonight . i still do . only you do not know it .

2007-10-12T21:57:00.000+08:00

bought the clothes i need . well one of them wasn't that satisfying but it's ok though . Happy Hari Raya To ALL . to all i would like to take this chance to ask for your forgiveness . for all the bad things i've done . everything . forgive me .

2007-10-02T02:21:00.001+08:00

why must this happen now ?

memories . since today is the last day of school . alot of pictures !

2007-09-26T23:43:00.001+08:00

it's over . it moves so fast . 5 years of friendship . now we have to go on our own ways .
all the best to everyone ! all the best for end of year exams !
all the best for N and O levels !
i love you guys and gals .

2007-09-19T23:23:00.000+08:00

i feel like jumping off the tallest building in the world and just feel the wind flow through me . i wanna know how it feels like to fly . to be free and just fly around in the beautiful summer sky . to get close with the stars at night . to have a bird's eye view of everything . well i'm afraid of heights and seriously i am . you don't know how afraid i am with heights but sometimes i just don't care . i adore the sky . i always look up at the sky and just wonder about all the things that i've done for myself and others . usually i just sit in my room with the guitar and play a tune and think about what i have done that has benefit others . what have i done that make people smile ? make people laugh ? make people think that there is something good in this world that is worth going for even if its going to cost you everything . there was this once where i was at the bus stop waiting for the bus to go for band practice . when the bus finally arrived, there was this old lady who ask another lady to help her with her trolley with all her groceries inside . i don't know what the other lady was doing and it seems to me that she was not doing anything to help . so i took the trolley in my hands and lift in up and into the bus . it was kinda heavy but i managed just fine . she got up the bus and was saying some things in her own mother tongue and i didn't understand a single thing she said . i don't know whether she was thanking me or scolding the other lady but sure as hell she wasn't scolding the other lady . and it doesn't seem like thanks! or thank you ! . well i wasn't expecting her thanks . but it felt good to help . it really felt good . there was another time . i was walking with my band mates . its some time ago . i forget who i was with but i know i was with my bandmates . we were at the Bukit Batok Interchange when suddenly a guy came to me . with sad eyes and a sad voice . he came up to me asking me for money because he was just released from the prison and had no money with him . he wanted some money for he wanted to call his family who abandoned him(typical behaviour of a family in this type of situation) and he had no money with him . i was holding $6 in my hand and he saw the cash in my hand . my band mates was telling me not to give him any because he is lying . they were saying keep the money , just tell him you need it . i ignored what my band mates told me for i saw it in his eyes that he wasn't lying . his eyes was telling me a story . i gave him $2 . i regretted that i didn't give him more . he thanked me alot of times . i didn't know what to say . i just say it's ok . i wonder why my band mates say that . everyone deserve a second chance . he didn't lie . even if he did, it doesn't matter its over . but i saw his eyes . i know it wasn't a white lie . i hope his family is wih him now . right at this very moment . and hope things are good for him now . eyes are very good storytellers . you can ask a friend whether they are ok and they can tell you the (yes i am ok crap) but look into their eyes and you can see a whole new story . i was watching this show on TV called Kyle XY about a boy(Kyle) who was found in the middle of a forest with no family . no past . no memory . and i was watching this part of the show where the kids in the family told him to lie about what happen during the day to their parents during dinner . he kept quiet . the parents was asking him how was his day ? and he didn't say anything . the kids were lying . Kyle was on his chair looking at the kids eyes and looking at them lying . it was his turn to speak about what happened during the day . and he find it hard to look at the mother's eyes because he didn't want to lie to her . he end up telling the truth and feeling very confused . to me its true . i find it hard to look at the person's eye whom i'm about to lie to . i'm not an emo . i just feel like typing about what had happen to me recently . =)

Girly

[x] I love at least one shade of pink.

[x] I don't like being messy.

[ ] My belongings are organized.

[ ] I don't like rock music.

[x] I like wearing accessories.

[x] Bright colors amaze me.

[ ] I hate black.

[ ] I go to the saloon once a week.

[ ] I comb my hair almost all the time.

[x] I bring my phone with me everywhere.

add up all your marks and multiply it by 10.

you are 50% girly.

Boyish

[x] I wear baggy pants.(only my school pants

[x] I play video games.

[x] I listen to boy bands like MyChemical Romance, Yellowcard,Switchfoot, etc.

[x] I like wearing jackets with hoods.

[x] I'm too lazy to do chores.

[ ] I don't like shopping.

[ ] I like to go bungee jumping.

[ ] I like being sweaty.

[ ] I'm a big fan of marvel heroes.

[ ] I barely wear perfume.

add up all your marks and multiply it by 10.

you are 50% boyish.

Nerdy

[ ] I always carry a pen in my purseor pocket.

[ ] I enjoy studying.

[ ] I wear glasses.

[ ] I'm a straight-A student.

[] I've never skipped any class in my whole life.

[ ] I like my shirt tucked in.

[ ] My favorite subject is science.

[x] I enjoy reading books.

[ ] My assignments are passed on time.

[x] I correct people with their grammar.

add up all your marks and multiply it by 10.

you are 20% nerdy.

Emo

[x] I love the color black.

[ ] I always sit at the corner.

[ ] One side of my hair is covering one of my eyes.

[ ] I like listening to metal rock music.

[x] I have a lot of problems in my life.

[ ] I'm not much of a loud person.

[ ] I don't talk much.

[ ] I don't have that much friends.

[ ] I barely have fun.

[ ] I barely go out with my folks or friends.

add up all your marks and multiply it by 10.

you are 20% emo.

Childish

[ ] I am open to my parents.

[x] I sleep with a stuff toy.

[x] I watch cartoons.

[ ] I don't like watching horror movies.

[ ] I sleep with a night light.

[ ] My parents are the ones who choose my outfit.

[x] I'm scared of roller coasters.

[x] I like being with my family relatives.

[ ] I take bubble baths.

[ ] I've ran around the house in my underwear.

add up all your marks and multiply it by 10.

you are 40% childish.

Popular

[x] A lot of people adore me.

[x] I hangout with the coolest crew at school.

[ ] My parents are loaded.

[ ] I get everything I want.

[ ] I don't wear the same outfit twice.

[ ] I always have the latest gadgets.

[ ] I'm updated to the latest gossips.

[x] I don't like people blocking my way.

[x] I have a lot of friends.

[ ] A lot of people look to me.

add up all your marks and multiply it by 10.

you are 40% popular.

It's from joey's blog which she took from esther's blog.

Do it for fun!

2007-09-18T22:18:00.000+08:00

what kind of life am i going to have in the future . i don't really care as of this moment . i just wanna get out there and have fun ! enjoy youth ! no matter how sad i get . one day i will smile =) . i will try my best to keep smiling . well as for my education . i'm getting really sick of it . i just wanna play music . i wanna compose songs . i wanna go for recording sessions at the studios . i wanna have an album . well its too much isn't it ?

its no different here . whatever you're going through . i'm going through it too . cry . smile . go crazy . we will do it together . ok ? i'm always here if u need me . the first part of the post . to me its kinda redundant . OK! lets cut the story short . today after school went to play CS for one hour and off i went to meet Abu to go and send his lappy for repair . the problem is his hard disk(or is the hard drive . . well i have forgotten) inside has a problem and the only way to solve it is to replace it with a new one . after that Abu wanted to buy shoe . so we walk around Bugis and realise we were walking in circles . damn ! finally we come to a conclusion . Home is where we are suppose to be heading at that point so we were on our way home inside the pack train standing with me feeling like a junkie thats all .

2007-09-14T01:25:00.000+08:00

i thought it was you . i thought i saw you . i was happy for like a few seconds . i couldn't believe my eyes . but i thought how can it be ? i felt sad looking at this girl who looks like you . she was walking beside a guy . its like i'm looking at you with another guy . she smiled at me when she pass by me . i felt even sadder . hoping that it was you . i'm still waiting .

2007-09-12T01:18:00.000+08:00

life has change . everything is rushing . time moves even faster than it use to be . it feels like i'm trap in a glass box which has no time . and looking outside . seeing the world moves so fast . everyone busy with their lives . moving so fast . n levels are coming and i swear i have no mood for it . in fact i don't take it seriously . not to worry . believe it or not . tomorrow i'm off to study . well . this whole week i shall say that its redundant cos everyday we only have 3 different subjects at school which means 3 different lessons and after that its boom boom bang bang bye bye . with having time moving faster than it use to be . everyone get scared . i blog hop and i realise everyone is afraid that they will not do well for their end of year exams which to me is utter rubbish . TO ALL . don't worry you all will pass . you all are better than me in education wise so don't worry . i shall take my leave for now . =)

i still love you .

2007-09-07T16:08:00.000+08:00

So hear this please
And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly
And look for the stars as the sun goes down
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound
Everything, everything's magic
Just sit back and hold on, but hold on tight
Prepare for the best and the fastest ride
And reach out your hand, and I'll make you mine
Everything, everything's magic . .

where are you ?

i will .

2007-08-31T22:51:00.000+08:00

give me time . i will be there forever . all i need is your trust .
wait for me please . i love you . Karolina .

sweet .

2007-08-18T02:05:00.001+08:00

Thanks ziyaad for combining the picture . i sent this to her . i wonder what she'll think of it . hope she'll like it . i really miss her . Karolina is the sweetest girl i have ever met in my whole life . i hope things will get better . .

i love you always .

2007-08-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

i'm happy with the way things are going now and i really hope things will get better . you're the sweetest person i have ever known my whole life . i really miss you today but hopefully tomorrow we will talk again like yesterday . i think of you every single moment of my life . you mean alot to me . we are worlds apart . i can't promise you this but one day if i have the chance . i will be there .
i love you . HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY ! MAY YOU BE BLESSED WITH EVERYTHING GOOD IN THIS LIFE .

national day .

2007-08-09T23:03:00.000+08:00

when it's suppose to be special . .
when everyone had fun when you didn't . .
when the fireworks conquered the sky . .
when you wished she was there beside you when she wasn't . .
when everyone sang when you cried . .

a hopeless case

2007-08-08T18:53:00.000+08:00

when a small box was opened and it's not the popping clown anymore . .
when the gift you received was the very source of the war . .
when a little is enough . .
when a good day turns out bad . .
when it hurts . .
when you realise everything you did was in vain . .
when you keep so much hope for yourself for the first time and it turns out bad . .

=) or =( ?

2007-08-06T22:44:00.000+08:00

when you love someone but it goes to waste . . when you feel that she is the one but she's actually not . . when that 3 words can no longer be trusted . . when everything goes exactly the way you don't want them to . . when you feel that everything is ok when its not . . when you were thinking about her but she's thinking about someone else . . when everything seems impossible . . when there's no other way . . when she walk away without turning back to look at you . . when love is no longer felt . . when things ends . . when there is no more love . .

do you ?

2007-08-06T01:59:00.000+08:00

do you believe that everything happens for a reason ?

and when you close your eyes . . . do you see the future ?

and if you could escape from your past . . .

do you be ready for the next adventure ?

a million thoughts .

2007-08-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

when everything feels so damn far away when u realise its just beside you . when you shouted for help and noone came to help you . when you were on the edge of darkness falling into the great path of magnificence . when the rhythms were composed by one man and heard by a million . when a storm is coming but noone turn back to run . when the dragons stop breathing fire . when she holds your hand and look into your eyes . when the birds start chirping sad songs . when the killer tomatoes starts being friendly . when the King dies for honor . when the warrior died for freedom . when the troops start running . when the bombs start exploding . when love is no longer true . when she looks at you .

some are beautiful, some are not.

finally . .

2007-07-29T22:11:00.000+08:00

finally after a few months . . i finally manages to compose a song . . not fully composed yet . just figured out the intro and verse . chorus and bridge and end still not figured out yet . see how things goes . .

genre : bossanova

life's been good . . everything is ok now . . but just one thing . . i'm confused . . and i'm SERIOUSLY CONFUSED .

thanks everyone who was there when i'm down . . a BIG THANK YOU to you all . .

time to say goodbye ? con te parttiro ?

2007-07-25T23:18:00.000+08:00

things are totally going the opposite way . it's like you are walking towards a storm where everyone is running away from it . . its like you're walking in a burning house where everyone is trying to get as far away from it as possible . . things are bad . . really bad . . i don't think i can smile anymore . .

Con Te Partiro ?
Time To Say Goodbye ?
I Hope Not . .

what happen ?

2007-07-19T23:03:00.000+08:00

what happen to us ? we are not talking anymore
it's like we're back to being strangers
i feel so sad now that we're back like this
you may not be thinking of it the way i think of it
but i feel that we are drifting away .

perfection .

2007-07-17T21:38:00.000+08:00

art is wonderful . masterpieces are formed . well painted by the tip of the brush . the sound of the paint being brush on a dry canvas . it is a totally different thing when it comes to understanding art . it is not how beautiful your masterpiece is . . its about how manipulative you can be to make it beautiful . . and its hard . but some has achieved perfection . to draw leaves . you have to imagine leaves being blown away . and the rustling of leaves which made contact on the hard floor . the wind blowing thru your hair . the sound of settling . you have to imagine it that way then you can manipulate it in such a way that you cn make your art piece beautiful . thats art .

it just ends .

2007-07-15T00:16:00.000+08:00

today is the 14th of july . and on the 14th of july, Dunearn Military Band has a concert .
a concert that is to give us confidence and also makes us believe in ourselves .
it was a memorable one . all of us were so damn happy . some were nervous . some were scared
that they might screw up . but most of us were looking forward to it . it was a concert to keep everyone's spirits up . i'm proud to see my section made a come back on the actual thing . it was wonderful . everyone had a good time . it was beautiful . after concert went to mac and had a good time talking to juniors and alumnis . it's been a while since the whole band went to mac and hang out . today is a day that i will always remember . all the music we play . all the laughter we share . it ends up as a beautiful day . but happy thing comes to an end . . Joey . i kept my promise . i wore the eyepatch !

happy ? i don't think so . .

2007-07-10T19:47:00.000+08:00

i never thought that it 's true . i always thought that it was just a white lie .
found out that it was true . things will never go the way i want it to be .
life is already miserable . everything has become very meaningless at this point .
with or without you . it doesn't feel right anymore .

bright sunny day . .

2007-07-10T00:15:00.000+08:00

this picture was not taken today . it was taken a long time ago .
i suddenly feel that this picture is beautiful .
N level oral was easy . today was a boring day .
things are still not going the way i want them too .

Remember Us

2007-07-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling better each day . . but deep inside me i know i'm not . i know that one of these days i will feel even worst .
any of you people have watch 300 ?
it's the best movie i have ever watch in my whole entire life !
it really shows how far a man can go just because he do not want to
kneel down to a so called ' God King '
300 against a million . they know it's a losing battle and they know
all 300 of them will die .
at the ending part of the movie . it really makes me feel sad .
because of the speech given right before they charge to victory .
it is the saddest part of the movie . some of you might think that its not .
but it really is to me .

the government is lying . .

2007-07-05T00:41:00.000+08:00

life is miserable . . life has a way of coming back at you . they jsut simply let you have all the good times and simply ruins it with a simple bad outcome . i don't really know what i'm typing but i just hope you people who read this understand what i'm trying to say . with the earth getting hotter and hotter day by day . i don't really see a change in people . green bags are all over the market now and people just keep using plastic bags . and its because of these plastic bags . which they burn causing air pollution and by causing air pollution . we are actually thickening the earth's atmosphere . and by thickening it . we are actually trapping the outgoing infrared radiation . and so . we are trapping more & more of these infrared radiation and the earth is heating up because of this .
aliens are proven to exist . even though the US government is saying that there is no such thing as aliens . they are trying to not make people panic . obviously the government is lying . aliens are out there . we are not alone in this universe . they are out there and we know it . their technology is far more advance and better than what we have . sorry i have nothing to type about . so i type about aliens .

down down down . .

2007-07-03T00:02:00.000+08:00

today was a good day . when something came up and it was really disappointing and i was really down . i was down the whole day . i kept it in myself . things are not going the way i want it too . i don't know why . i feel so sad . i don't know what to do . i hate studying . i hate school . i love my friends . i just wanna quit school but if i do that . i won't get to see my friends . till here . .

when happy yellow turns to deep red . .

2007-07-01T23:23:00.000+08:00

happy moments just keep on ending . . every smile you have on your face .
will soon fade away . i feel dumb not knowing something that i should have known a few weeks ago . . things are not going the way i want them too . . i don't know what to do now . .

yesterday . . today . . tomorrow . .

2007-06-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

today . . kinda suck . . i feel so damn dissapointed . .
today is not a good day . . on the way home . i felt damn sad .
i don't know why . . just the way things are going . .

typicality . .

2007-06-26T01:34:00.001+08:00

why are parents are such an ass . . ? i'm sorry o those who love their parents alot . .
my mum scolded me for things i never did . . she compares me with everyone . .
for all the poeple who are out there and are trying to do something with your music . .
just go on with your life . keep on going ahead with your music . . i'm doing the exact same thing
my mum has made it clear that even if she have the money to pay for me to expand my knowledge of music . . she never will . .
my heart really sank when those words came out of her mouth . . my parents really hate it when i'm doing something with music . . they would rather have me waste money to go watch movie or play games . . go out and hang out . rather than me playing music . . that is simply stupid . . they rather have me go out and do something stupid than me actually playing music . . they simply hate the fact that i'm into music . . well they sucks . . BIG TIME !

hours of fun and tiredness sets in . .

2007-06-24T02:02:00.000+08:00

well today . . was interesting . . met up with halim nazrul isaac forbes abu and ziyaad went to school to self practice . . well we went in music room and play beautiful music . . well after had fun playing music . . we played frisbie till the frisbie breaks into 2 . . actually more than 2 pieces . . well abu went home . . me isaac forbes ziyaad went to KFC . . i made a phone call to home to check if my brothers have already left for fishing . . they haven't so i quickly make my way home so i could go with them . . reached home change clothes and straight away leave house . . had fun fishing . . caught alot of fish . . then went home . . hours of fun quickly change to tiredness . . fatigue . . enjoyed myself today . . had fun . . sorry for not posting for the past few days . . was so damn lazy to post anything . .

Songs to live and die by . .

2007-06-19T03:17:00.000+08:00

well sometimes i wonder. . people just don't seem to care . . like for instance . . there's this old lady who sells tissue . . right at the escalator at jurong interchange . .everytime i see her . . i will buy tissue from her . . just one dollar and you get 3 packets of tissue . . some people ignores her. . i don't understand why . . can't you just spare a dollar for her . . i feel sad for her . . people just simply don't care . . well enough of this people . . make me feel sick . .
ok . . everytime i walk . . or take a bus . . i will look at things . . i will look at people and see their behaviour . see how they walk . . i will look at the cars passing through . . the world just continue their lives and just forget about the things happening around them . . i always wonder how it feels like if i can feel what others feel . . like some sort of ability . . i can feel what others are feeling . . it might be painful . . it might be great . . all my life ever since i was a small kid . . i always wonder what it feels like . .
every now and then . . i try to compose songs . . i keep failing . . i might have found chords which are so beautiful but i just can't find another chord to go along with it . . to me . . to compose a song . . the process of which you have to go through to compose a beautiful song . . really needs alot of hardwork . . i listen to many types of music . . psychedelic . . post-punk . . punk rock . . punk . . experimental . . soundscape . . orchestral . . indie . . alternative . . rock . . heavy rock . . modern rock . . and these people whom i listen to . . they can compose music in many different styles . . well . . i've been trying hard to compose another one of my own . . its hard . . music has always been part of my life . . i know i can compose one song . . but all i need is creativity and i don't think i have it . . i think i need to lock myself in a room with filled with a guitar . drumset and a piano . . for like a few days . . i think i can come up with one song . . but . . why go through all those stuff when u can just compose one peacefully . .well i obviously need help . . sorry for this crap blog . . i was just doing alot of thinking right at this very moment while i was typing this whole thing . .

With Or Without You

2007-06-18T00:15:00.000+08:00

U2 - With Or Without You

today and yesterday is boring i don't have much to say . . all i want to say is . . i'm just afraid that things aren't gonna go the way i want them to . .

Closer

2007-06-15T17:04:00.000+08:00

Travis - Closer

DMB BBQ . had a good time . well in the morning i went to ben wu's house to take all the stuff for the bbq and then go jurong and meet the rest and go . well we reached there and quickly settle down . quickly organize stuff and quickly rent bikes ! well . it was fun . after renting bkes we went back to the pit to took a rest but abu asked me if i want to cycle all the way till the end ad i said ok ah . so me and abu make our way and later on found out yuan chuan was on our tail . so the three of us head for the end . and later on suddenly alfiyan came out of nowhere so now, theres 4 of us . well we cycle all the way till the end and found a NTUC Fairprice trolley . well my idea was to take the trolley back to our pit so that it will be easier for us when we go home . so we cycle all thew ay back to our pit with the trolley in abu and alfiyan's hands . well very soon . it was evening and people start to eat alot . we played soccer . frisbie (i've forgotten how to spell it) . and catching . it was fun . then while i was just hanging out with the usual people and making jokes and laugh . my mum called and told me that she wanted to pick me up . well i didn't want to go home as all my friends were there . so i told her i want to stay overnight and she said ok . so after sending my parents off . i quickly make my way back to the pit and there was only justin . abu . isaac . bojian . ziyaad . ben wu . alfiyan and aidil .so all of us hung out and sang songs which obviously made our pit the noisiest one . abu . aidil . bojian and ben wu decided that they want to sleep so left me . isaac . justin and alfiyan still up and awake and trying to entertain ourselves so . we just sit down and talk about ghost stories and aliens . . kinda stupid but it was fun . then soon it was dawn so we woke them up and make our way home . but then while walking to the bus stop . we decided to go home take a bath and make our way to school to help huldah and the rest of the sec 3s to paint the bannr . i went home and took a bath and go went to school . it was kinda tiring but i can take it . well i wanna apologize to Huldah and friends who were there doing the banner for i did nothing to help . i'm sorry . well after prayers me . alfiyan and ziyaad meet up with dayna at mac and just talk . . well overall i think i had a good time . Thanks Everyone !

In The Morning And Amazing

2007-06-13T19:28:00.000+08:00

Circa Survive - In The Morning And Amazing

Just feel like blogging early today . yesterday was boring so i didn't blog . today is in fact boring too . been trying to compose songs but nothing is produced at the end of the day . i wonder how those artists like Timbaland . Nada Surf . Trespassers William get their ideas for sngs like hip-hop . psychedelic and alternative genres . their music is so beautiful and very well composed . need to try harder then .

E.E Cummings once wrote,

To be nobody but yourself and the world which is doing its best night and day
to make you everybody else . . needs to fight which any human being can fight
and never stop fighting . .

Daisychains

2007-06-12T00:23:00.001+08:00

Youth Group - Daisychains

today me . abu . isaac . joey . ziyaad ben wu & zulkifli went to IMM . to go and check the prices for the stuffs for the bbq . well walk around Giant and look for stuff . just walking around and checking all the prices . went to mac to eat . while walking around we met farhani and pei shi . its just a normal day la .

Dr.Martin Luther King, Jr once wrote,
Intelligence plus character -
that is the goal of true education.

The Last Cigarette

2007-06-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

Ed Harcourt - The Last Cigarette.

let me tell you about what happen today . . there was a concert and i was trying to get alot of people to go and in the end only ziyaad me and dayna can make it . but last minute only left me and dayna so i met her at jurong and quickly too kthe train to bugis as the concert was at NAFA . once we reach Bugis we lookedat the map to find the way there . once we knew how to walk there we quickly make our move there . well we were walking and we came across this dumpling festival and there was alot of dumpling shop . well isn't is the dumpling festival . then we walk on and came across this BIG Chinese temple . she told me about her grandmother who always came here and pray . well thats good ! keep on praying !! . then we walk and finally reach NAFA . well the concert was ok . as it was time for us to go home . we walk to same way and she called her dad whether he could pick her up . he told her to go jurong and he will fech her there . so we walk the same way we came and dayna told me about the legend behind this dumpling festival . it was kinda stupid but its still a legend . took the train home . we reached jurong and there was this guy who gave us a short survey about some stupid thing . so i end my post here .

Dayna . if you're seeing this . Thanks for going to the concert with me . well it was a beautiful night isn't it . ? haha . .

Wasted Days

2007-06-09T04:30:00.000+08:00

Highwater Rising - Wasted Days

today's band practice was normal but still every band practice is good . . we played sounds from the 60s . chorale and jubiloso and pirates of the caribbean . all 3 wonderful songs . and next week there won't be any band practice cos only God knows why there aren't any . well 1 week of no band practice is stupid especially when we have a concert coming up on the july 14 . but nevermind . after band went to mac and eat and slept at mac . was so damn tired because i didn't sleep the night before . after mac they all decided to go to the AXS machine to do dome bbq pit stuff . i don't know any of those stuff so i decided to went home alone .

Charles Bukowski once wrote,

There will always be something to ruin our lives . .
It all depends on what or which fins us first . .
You're always ripe and ready to be taken . .

Irrelevant

2007-06-08T04:00:00.000+08:00

Matthew Ryan - Irrelevant

today was just a normal day . woke up quite late as i sleep very late . stayed home the whole day . i've been thinking alot . and i have decided that i want to make music as my career . i know its kinda early to mkae this decision but hell, who cares . for a start . music is everything to me . its the only thing i have .
music to me is . a thing that gives you a sensation . a feeling that is so pure . so strong . at the part where the music is at its climax . it makes your hair stands . gives you a sensation . a feeling that you will remember for the rest of your life . music is all i have . i want it to be the GREAT part of the chapter in my life . had a good time playing gunbound today .

Stephen King once wrote,

Time takes it all . . whether you want it to or not . .
Time takes it all . . Time buries it away . . and in the end . .
there is only darkness . .
Sometimes we find others in that darkness . .
and sometimes we lose them there again . .

late night partner

2007-06-07T00:47:00.000+08:00

Ed Harcourt - Late Night Partner

today was kinda interesting . . i played timpani for Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon . . very nice song and the timpani part was very very easy . . i was enjoying every single part of it . . really nice song . . well after band went to mac to eat . . was laughing alot . . and justin thanks for the sauce . . after that went home . .

Nathaniel Hawthorne once wrote,

No man for any inconsiderable period, can wear one face to

himself and another to the multitude without finally getting

bewildered as to which maybe the truth . .

Matching Weight

2007-06-06T05:20:00.000+08:00

Trespassers William - Matching Weight

just another day spent at home . . i woke up at around 5 plus in the afternoon . slept at around 5 plus in the morning the night before . . kinda having a bad headache but nevermind . . had religious class today . . on the way home, i came upon this very cute cat . at the void deck . . i'm talking about the cat because people usually don't care about cats so this post goes out to all the cats out there . no matter where they are or what they are doing . . i just adore cats . cute animals . .

T.H. White once said,
perhaps we give the best of our hearts uncritically,
to those who hardly think about us in return . .

smile like you mean it .

2007-06-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

The Killers - Smile Like You Mean It.

beautiful song . i love it . today went for band . just like any normal day . only thing different was that i did alot of thinking today . i don't know why . . just like last friday . i dont feel like talking alot at mac again . i did talk but to me i didn't talk much . well life has been different now . sometimes i wonder if anything is absolute anymore . . is there still right and wrong . . good and bad . . truth and lies . . why is everything negotiable . . ?

there are doors . .

2007-06-03T01:10:00.000+08:00

today is not a good day . i don't want to talk about it .

William Blake once wrote,

there are things that are known and things that are unknown

and in between . . there are doors . .

well .

2007-06-02T00:38:00.000+08:00

well . .
today : went to school in the morning.
went for band . while the band was doing footdrills, me isaac halimwent to stff room to help ziyaad with the tickets . isaac was cutting the tickets and halim was chopping them with the school stamp . (anyhow ah) when their DnT teacher came in and ask them to go for DnT and i was left alone to cut the rest of the tickets . . well thanks to Li Fang and Finna . they helped me chop the tickets . . Thanks so much . and well after getting sick of the tickets i decided to leave the staff room for the music room . . went in and realised that BREAK is over . so just sit down at the drumset and play songs which Mr Yeo wants to go through . after band we went for prayers and then went to mac to meet up with isaac, nicholas, rui zhong, and forbes . well after eating and going into junkie mode at mac . i decided to go home . took a nap and bathe and went my grandma's house to send her off at the airport . she's going for pilgrimage . i was at the airport with my whole family waiting for them to go off . . well she will be back on the 15th . .

Joey Tham if you're seeing this . . KEEP POSTING MORE !!

My New Blog

2007-05-31T23:20:00.001+08:00

Firstly , welcome to my new blog ! i want to thank 2 people that help me with this blog . .
1) Katrina
2)Isaac
Thanks So Much .
Simple Blog . i will try my best to post daily .
Once again . . Welcome . .