well sometimes i wonder. . people just don't seem to care . . like for instance . . there's this old lady who sells tissue . . right at the escalator at jurong interchange . .everytime i see her . . i will buy tissue from her . . just one dollar and you get 3 packets of tissue . . some people ignores her. . i don't understand why . . can't you just spare a dollar for her . . i feel sad for her . . people just simply don't care . . well enough of this people . . make me feel sick . .
ok . . everytime i walk . . or take a bus . . i will look at things . . i will look at people and see their behaviour . see how they walk . . i will look at the cars passing through . . the world just continue their lives and just forget about the things happening around them . . i always wonder how it feels like if i can feel what others feel . . like some sort of ability . . i can feel what others are feeling . . it might be painful . . it might be great . . all my life ever since i was a small kid . . i always wonder what it feels like . .
every now and then . . i try to compose songs . . i keep failing . . i might have found chords which are so beautiful but i just can't find another chord to go along with it . . to me . . to compose a song . . the process of which you have to go through to compose a beautiful song . . really needs alot of hardwork . . i listen to many types of music . . psychedelic . . post-punk . . punk rock . . punk . . experimental . . soundscape . . orchestral . . indie . . alternative . . rock . . heavy rock . . modern rock . . and these people whom i listen to . . they can compose music in many different styles . . well . . i've been trying hard to compose another one of my own . . its hard . . music has always been part of my life . . i know i can compose one song . . but all i need is creativity and i don't think i have it . . i think i need to lock myself in a room with filled with a guitar . drumset and a piano . . for like a few days . . i think i can come up with one song . . but . . why go through all those stuff when u can just compose one peacefully . .well i obviously need help . . sorry for this crap blog . . i was just doing alot of thinking right at this very moment while i was typing this whole thing . .